Month: April 2017

Asperger’s, the desperately beautiful trap of my soul…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAP4XWJxDaY I feel again and again, like my soul is trapped in a desperately, beautiful way in this song… According to the "world", I live with Asperger's; the world with which I feel like communicating the way this transcendent performance does, in a desperate attempt to make myself understood without being hurt, again and again, silently … Continue reading Asperger’s, the desperately beautiful trap of my soul…

Fifth of Asperger’s Ten Traits – “… people aren’t as open or trusting as we are”

"5) We learn that to fit in we have to “fake” it. Through trial and error, we lost friends. We over-shared, spilling out intimate details to strangers; we raised our hand too much in class, or didn’t raise our hand at all; we had little impulse control with our speaking, monopolizing conversations and bringing the … Continue reading Fifth of Asperger’s Ten Traits – “… people aren’t as open or trusting as we are”

Fourth of Asperger’s Ten Traits – “We still question our place in the world…”

"4) We have comorbid attributes of other syndromes/disorders/conditions. We often have OCD tendencies (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), sensory issues (with sight, sound, texture, smells, taste), generalized anxiety and/or a sense we are always unsafe or in pending danger, particularly in crowded public places. We may have been labelled with seemingly polar extremes: depressed/over-joyed, lazy/over-active, inconsiderate/over-sensitive, lacking awareness/attention … Continue reading Fourth of Asperger’s Ten Traits – “We still question our place in the world…”

In case you’re not a (piece of a) puzzle… (update 1)

I know for a fact, that many Neurodivergents, weren't really happy about what has become the public logo-face of Autism, the "puzzle piece". And I was wondering what in the world could have been its 'source of inspiration', since besides the sometimes puzzling effect the presence of a Neurodivergent has upon Neurotypicals, our lives are … Continue reading In case you’re not a (piece of a) puzzle… (update 1)

Third of Asperger’s Ten Traits – Escape Artist, from the World into my Box…

"3) We are escape artists. We know how to escape. It’s the way we survive this place. We escape through our fixations, obsessions, over-interest in a subject, our imaginings, and even made up reality. We escape and make sense of our world through mental processing, in spoken or written form. We escape in the rhythm … Continue reading Third of Asperger’s Ten Traits – Escape Artist, from the World into my Box…

“autism: […] the future of our society depends on our understanding it.”

Over a lifetime spent with mostly futile attempts to drift with the flow, I've discovered a mostly disturbing quality of my mind, namely the "finding the needle before seeing the haystack" capability, which made me a persona non-grata at meetings where those having an interest in hiding matters, oftentimes forbade me of taking notes, or … Continue reading “autism: […] the future of our society depends on our understanding it.”